I’m gonna miss him. & I feel bad for people who have no respect for the dead. It’s amazing to me. WHAT IF it was your brother? Your son? Your father? Who died so suddenly and all people wanna do is make jokes? WHAT IF IT WAS YOU? Who was TRIED AND ACQUITTED for something as heineous as Pedophilia – or anything for that matter - how would you feel if people never let it go and still branded you as a bad person? No one wants to examine shit from that perspective. They just like to point the finger and laugh… hypocrites.
I’m admitting it out loud and for real this time. I remember when I used to have abs and I miss it. What I miss most, is feeling comfortable in my own skin though… the abs were just a nice bonus. It’s like, since I’ve found a stress-free (almost) relationship, I’ve let myself go. And with all the recent lifestyle changes, I’m almost totally inactive. I work at home, on the PC, so I hardly ever move around. I don’t play volleyball anymore and I barely go anywhere. So I’ve basically gone from a perfectly fit college athlete to a fat, immobile hermit. Seriously. In the past 4 years I’ve gained about 50lbs! This is the first time I’m admitting that online. Yeah. I’m a biggun now. The worst part? Hearing it from everyone who knows me from back when I was “Captain of the volleyball team”. One of my former teammates (and my homegirl) kinda got under my skin when she just blurted out how much bigger I’ve gotten and how I’m not the captain she remembers, but at least I’m “not sloppy”. Ouch. That shit hurt, Jah. But I know that’s not what your intentions were. They were to motivate.
And that I am!
I’ve made a personal vow, and I will try harder than ever to keep this one. I’ve tried before, but lack of discipline and years of bad habits have always been my downfall. Obviously that’s not working in my favor, so I’ve made the commitment to myself: I’m gonna lose the weight.
I wanna get down to a healthy weight like I said. It’s so wierd: I used to play volleyball for 6hrs at a time sometimes, but nowadays if I have to walk up a flight of stairs I get out of breath and woozy! It’s pathetic. And I’m totally to blame. My laziness and my fucked up eating habits.
I know losing weight doesn’t happen overnight… losing these many pounds sure as shit doesn’t. So I’m working on a weekly basis. I’m gonna try to walk on the treadmill for at least half a mile everyday to start. Junk food has GOT TO GO. And that shit is my biggest problem!!!! But today I will give my Honeycombs and my Rice Krispies treats to my neice and nephew. I’m gonna get Kyle to take me to Waldbaums to buy 7 days worth of healthy food: Watermelon, Strawberries, Yogurt, Salads, Tuna (so I need lemons too), Apples, Bananas will be my breakfast type foods and snacks. I will need chicken cutlets or something to back for dinner or grill. They will go nicely with my salads. Maybe some veggies to steam.
I also bought some energy supplements. When they arrive I will incorporate them into my diet and exercise routine. In a month I will update on my weight with any progress I’ve made (or lack of). I wanna get at least 20lbs off by August.
Please believe the whole album is beautifully crafted though. And even though I have this…. “questionably obtained” copy, I will definitely be purchasing this album in a couple days. Day26 is one of the few artists who will make me drag my ass to FYE to support their music.
Peace & Blessings.
PS: I feel so bad for Dawn and Aundrea… might as well throw Donnie in the mix…
I’m admitting it out loud and for real this time. I remember when I used to have abs and I miss it. What I miss most, is feeling comfortable in my own skin though… the abs were just a nice bonus. It’s like, since I’ve found a stress-free (almost) relationship, I’ve let myself go. And with all the recent lifestyle changes, I’m almost totally inactive. I work at home, on the PC, so I hardly ever move around. I don’t play volleyball anymore and I barely go anywhere. So I’ve basically gone from a perfectly fit college athlete to a fat, immobile hermit. Seriously. In the past 4 years I’ve gained about 50lbs! This is the first time I’m admitting that online. Yeah. I’m a biggun now. The worst part? Hearing it from everyone who knows me from back when I was “Captain of the volleyball team”. One of my former teammates (and my homegirl) kinda got under my skin when she just blurted out how much bigger I’ve gotten and how I’m not the captain she remembers, but at least I’m “not sloppy”. Ouch. That shit hurt, Jah. But I know that’s not what your intentions were. They were to motivate.
